Sensory Processing and Low Self-Worth
Talking about self-esteem is difficult for me because it is so entwined with memories of lack of support growing up and my own struggles of self-worth throughout my adulthood.
For the majority of my life I have hid behind the notion that ‘I’m okay’…a mantra passed to me by my mother and inculcated as my own internal dialogue - it is the voice that shouts at me;
‘you are strong…you can do this….nothing will stop you’.
Reading this you may think what wonderful influences I had growing up and how empowering these messages of strength are, but regardless of their good intention the truth is I didn’t need to ‘be strong’.
What I needed was understanding of my sensory sensitivities and help and support to regulate them!
As a consequence of unsupported sensory differences my experiences of pain and overwhelm have repeatedly been ignored and dismissed throughout my life. I was left with a body that felt out of control and a mind flooded by untamed thought and sensations.
When I was younger I believed that I needed to live up to the notion that ‘I was strong’, but no matter what I did I could not stop the process that lead to sensory overwhelm.
I felt like a failure!
I felt worthless!
I felt like it was my fault!
I believe it is this lack of understanding that has contributed to my difficulties with low self-worth because when your pain is dismissed and ignored it is difficult to believe that you are worthy of any loving actions.
This is why I promote self-love and self-care throughout Hygge Me. I know the messages of self-love can feel uncomfortable at first and the notion that we are worth the supports that have been ignored throughout our lives is something that each of us must process …
…but I hope that together we can create a loving space where we believe we deserve love and kindness.
Thank you for joining me on the Hygge Me journey to self-love,
Love to your sensory self,
Jess x x